I am so out of it. G-O-N-E.
Its like im living in this alternate universe,
My head is spinning
Literally
Im not thinking,
But just an hour ago i threw a glass vase at granny dearest's feet and told her off.
and NOW im in for it.She's gonna do something extreme, like kick me out of the house or something.
that wouldnt  be so bad though, atleast i can take Tabbath along with me
I mean she's like my Hobbes, Only not a toy tiger, Just a cat(a real one). XD
Yesterday was a bad day. really bad.
And today i got up. EXHAUSTED.my feet are barely moving, i feel soo drained out, My eyes are weak, My nose has started to bleed again, and i cant find those fucking painkillers
Im so fucked.
haha XD
I cant believe im actually laughing, Yes, laughing at myself.and not chucking or smirking , The kind of one when you watch 'my name is earl' or any smosh video. yes THAT hard.
*chugs frozen diet coke*
and i have this japanese song stuck in my head and i keeep singing it out loud and vaishali thinks im some retard
which i am. sigh. Oh well. DAMN that asimaa:P
aww no i wub her:D

Anyway I dont think im back to feeling like shit. I still fucking love myself, for the time being.
i was with a whole bunch of ppl today, but i dint talk much and just kept listening to music, Just looking around  ocassionaly cracking a mean joke, and mostly just watching  how stupid people sound when they're excited
Then realising that not too long ago, i was like that.Hyperactive and  miss social, and atleast 50% normal.
Mission anti-social is now becoming my livelihood, i dont feel the need to constantly be talking to people.
I love being alone now, as much as i hated it.
I shouldnt be like this, shouldnt push away the people i love and shut them out. But i cant help it...everything seems soo much

EASIER.
 As much as i want to be like this forever, i dont want to... Im such a fucking bunch of contradictions. BLAH!

As if.